You sit across from me with a nervous smile. “We are thinking about foster care or adoption, what do you think?” You will be changed. You will lose control. You are going to stumble more times than you soar, and the bruises from the falls will not go away. It’s going to hurt you, break you and press you to… Read More
I never wanted children, in fact, I wasn’t going to ever get married. I wanted a career and I wanted financial success. So when I’m asked if I wanted a big family, I laugh because it’s so far from what I thought my life would look like. When someone asks if I always knew I’d adopt, I smile because “heck… Read More
I flew back from Bulgaria late Saturday night., I was in the hospital Sunday morning. Israel woke up with a leg swollen triple the size of normal with ‘concerning’ redness. Mentally and physically, I was exhausted and emotionally spent. Much of Sunday was a blur. At one point during his stay, I was helping distract and hold him down as they… Read More
Before we decided to do foster care or adoption, I read stuff. I researched and tried to find answers to questions I had because I truly wanted to understand adoption, foster care and the process. Part of my search for answers, was trying to find security in choosing to foster and adopt. I read lots of statistics and information, but… Read More
There are times that something is right in front of your face and you don’t see it. I look back on those two days, and I’m embarrassed to say that it never crossed my mind. I had walked those steps over and over, and not once did I wonder how the children reached the third floor to see us. How… Read More
First Moments… I’m meeting her in 18 days. A 23-month old toddler, who has no idea that a mother is flying across the ocean. A little one who does not know the moments and months of anticipation and love from afar. A little girl who does not understand that I have looked at her picture every day and dreamed of… Read More