I see it every week…the contained grief of a special needs mom as they see the missed milestones or hear the test results. I talk weekly to these mamas at my work. And yesterday it hit me clearly that they also need to grieve the parent they would have imagined themselves to be. So I write this and say yes mama,… Read More
Family is forever…they say. Family is forever…you said. But is there a point, where love’s not enough and forever is too long? This is not what you expected or intended the day you chose to love a child who had been hurt, the day you chose to adopt. You never knew that their pain could trigger your own wounds, and… Read More
Cult – a small group of people having practices defined by others as strange. It has taken me many months of observation and investigation. Last Spring, I stumbled upon what I believed to be an unnatural phenomena and began documenting and investigating this strange occurrence. After endless study, I have finally come to the only logical explanation I could find…my children’s teachers… Read More
Dear Younger Me, I miss you at times. I look back and think about the days where your greatest worry was convincing the toddler to branch out and try something besides string cheese and crackers and whose turn it was to unload the dishwasher. You worried about the jeans that no longer fit around those postpartum hips and you thought… Read More
It’s Spina Bifida Awareness Month. Israel has Spina Bifida and the form he has is called myelomeningocele. If you google “myelomeningocele”, you will read that it is the most “severe” or “serious” form of Spina Bifida. And if you go a little further and look up the words severe and serious, you will see words like grave, critical, dour, grim,… Read More
Today I sat on the phone and I listened to words that fell like stones within my heart, and tiny pieces shattered. I listened in disbelief as the nurse relayed medical information that I did not want to hear. And deeply, I raged as I heard her speak about MRI results that are a direct result of medical abuse and… Read More